I feel like this summer is going to be marked by Grace. Either that or emptiness and brokenness. I guess if I look at it that way I’d choose Grace.
The problem is the fact that what I get out of if is only going to equal what I put into it.
Discipline and drive are my fiercest competitors.
I have so many dreams and desires. Things I long for so intensely. I am overwhelmed by these cravings, yearnings for something bigger. To be a certain person. To achieve certain things.
I don’t know how to wait.
I’m okay with taking my time and figuring, working through different things, but I just don’t know what to do with this hunger. I’m consumed by it, it overpowers me and I feel helpless under it’s weight. The easiest way is to give up. Let it go and then try to live indifferent to it. In reality, I don’t want to give these things up, I just don’t know how to handle it.
Grace enough, Grace enough, Grace enough. This is love.
I can either mark this summer by Grace and love, or indifference and shallowness. To live a life of worship, a lifestyle of enjoying God, loving Him and also giving all of myself to be used for His purposes and glory, or walk selfishly day to day.
It’s way easier to be ignorant, but is it worth it?
