Jesus, I am so desperate for your touch in my life. I don't just need it, or want it, I'm desperate Lord. My heart is just so ready for you.
You are so amazing, You showed us a glimpse of heaven and glory by sending Your son.
In a moment you can step into a life, intervene, etc. You give so much meaning into life. So much hope and future forever in Your name.
More and more I reach out and call on Your name. I am learning that there's nothing greater than Your love. Nothing is greater, not friends, family, not my boyfriend and my sisters. Everything I value, the things that make me who I am, the things that I use to place value on my life are nothing compared to Your intense love. Your love is so full, so thick in my life. So evident in everything around me. Even the earth proclaims Your greatness. It's so unreal, I can't even get over it. The bigness of the universe, and the smallness, You didn't miss a single little detail! How could all of everything ever just come to be? The creativity, the preciseness, it's so intricate! The uniqueness of each and every individual.
Your grace and mercy has saved me by your blood. Grace meaning giving me things that I don't deserve, mercy being not giving me the things I do.
Seriously, it's unreal. Every shame, every bit of guilt, insecurities, fear, all of it gone in Your love.
Your love is like fire that burns for all to see. Your love is like a man who finds something of great worth buried in the ground. He goes and sells EVERYTHING he owns and buys the land where he found the treasure!! How can he not give up everything for the treasure when he knows he'll be extremely rich if he only buys that land. Your love is so unconditional, not judgmental. It is quick to forgive and forget, it won't hold anything against you. It won't stop, it won't betray, it doesn't hold grudges. It doesn't require anything other than love back. You pour it out so heavy it's impossible to contain.
All I want, Jesus, is to worship at your feet. I can't even fathom Your greatness. I get to see glimpses of it. Give me a heart of worship, give me a heart that longs for you. Still my rebellious will, my heart that wants just to live for myself. I can't do it on my own. Your plans are so much bigger than anything I can even imagine. Let Your fire consume my life.
Take me deeper in Your love. Your love that is patient and kind, that is not self-seeking. Love that always protects, always trusts always hopes always perseveres, and never fails. Draw me closer to Yourself, teach me this kind of love, this kind of life.
All I want is more of you!
I am completely surrendered and in awe of Your love. Continually humbled by the message of Your cross. What kind of person gives up everything for someone they've never met? And by everything, I mean everything. How humbling would it be for God to even live on earth? Giving up complete love by angels and heavenly beings, richness and majesty, only to be mocked, beat and finally torturered to death.
I stand abandoned in your presence and embrace. No, I can't even stand in Your presence. It's so insane that You would even embrace me. You hold me in your hands, you know my every thought. Not just my thoughts, You know my wants and desires, not because you made me and that's just how it goes, but because You've chosen to get to know me on a personal level. You not only know the big things in life, the things I tell my friends, but the things that I hold on to, the things I really don't tell people. You, also, give me free will. Which is hard to understand. You can control us but you choose to give us free will, fully knowing that we might not choose You. How incredible. Your love continues to amaze me. You love us so much that Your willing to give us the choice to not love You back.
I'll never be the same. I don't want to be the same. How can I experience this, kinda wrap my head around it, and go back. Go back to what? To insecurities, to fear, to shame? Your love wipes it all away, those things don't matter. In Your love, what should I be afraid of? People, finances, sickness? You are my provider, my comforter, my healer. I am a daughter of the King, I am beautiful, I have worth. I have been bought with a VERY large price.
When You call I will follow. I want to be completely in Your will. I know what I'm supposed to do. To learn to do right, seek justice, encourage the oppressed, defend the cause of the fatherless, and plead the case of the widow. In Your strength these things can be accomplished as long as I stop trying to do it my way, with my knowledge and resources. I only know so much, I can only afford so much, I need You to go above and beyond anything I can do in myself.
Thank-you for Your love, Jesus I belong to you.
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